Did it send you to jails, institutions, homeless shelters or to lonely places? We showed my angel good that night. Also thanks to you, I had nowhere to go, because you were able to obligingly preoccupy so much of my time that I had been unable to find a job. My existence with you was insanity and, you know what, I made it through that. Dependent by the age of 15, I added spirits to everything, even my food. I never want to see you again. It's like saying goodbye to an old friend or old lover that treated you like dirt. Not that it mattered to me, I didn't care if I died, if I took some pills and it was my last high.
This was so inspiring and I appreciate you sharing this! You remember those good times, long ago when the relationship was new and you wonder how you could live without that drug. I always viewed you as a character, sometimes making those close to me more affectionate and then at other times causing anger and violence. This is Day Two for me. I got engaged to a man who also was in love with you and three people in a relationship does not work. You made me ruin friendships, ruin my self-esteem and you made me make horrible decisions that I can barely live with.
We are changing our names during this divorce back to who we were before you moved in on our lives. I almost gave up on you at this point, but deep inside I knew you had more in store for me. What was once benign is now very much malignant and I must move on. When I was 21, I met your friend cocaine, who accelerated my descent into sacred darkness. While you have officially been uninvited to my party, I must thank you for everything I learned as a result of my weakness to you. This is not me,how did I get to this place? To get away from you, my unhealthy relationship, and impending relationship I moved all the way across the country.
I wasn't happier with myself. You see this all happened in the recent years, I'm only 20 now, but I'm trying to find the way. You comforted me through pain and sorrow and you were always around to help me celebrate my victories. Stop choosing drugs and start choosing yourself. Club soda and coffee are my substitutes. Whether good or bad you have been the one thing I could count on.
So, you lier, cheat and thief, farewell, skedaddle, adios, arrivederci, ciao, auf Wiedersehen, so long, good bye, adieu, hit the road Jack and don't come back! Now it's time for a breakup and a firm goodbye. However, you chose to do this goodbye ceremony, do it and toss that drug of choice out of your life. I never developed courage because you told me that the substance I craved would take away all fear and protect me. You gave me a voice and although it was not a voice heard by anyone but me it was with me constantly, chattering away non-stop like white noise. It was a mutual thing. So I have decided to say good bye. Somehow I juggled the two of you, despite your angst for each other.
My counselor suggested I compose a goodbye missive to booze. All calls to numbers on individual facility listings will always go to the facility listed. But these circumstances aren't normal, and to unconditionally surrender I choose. Going out used to be fun, before you came along and showed your ugly self to me and all of my friends. If you ask me, real life should be a breeze without you there to bring me down, make me feel shame, guilt, and failure all the time.
I really loved the part about being in a circle of safety with your friends. It's okay to leave I'm stronger now. Wandering through a hole in time, they encounter Sasquatch. I trusted you… I put my faith in you… and you let me down. I am 9 days into my current attempt. Everywhere I went, you trailed behind me. You were a factor in the choices that I made and with the friends and partners that I chose.
I'm finally in a place where I can see clearly and there's no place for you here. You made me do things I never thought I would be capable of doing. You almost got me to give you everything. Are there any hobbies or activities you always wanted to sign up too? My relationships were crumbling around me. I wasn't doing anything worthwhile in the world. I already sensed my angel was gone for good, so what was the harm? You presented yourself as this glorious friend, one I had searched my whole life for. We strive to be fully transparent in all of our relationships.
You can pack up your bags and move on somewhere else because I am done with you. The information provided through Recovery. Nothing but take, take, take! Nor is sadness, grief, insecurity, hurt or any of those things you will try to exploit. I act on the side of love, not fear. I managed to quit the pills and meth - even though the thoughts of them are never too far away.
Picture courtesy of pixabay Is it hard to let go of your addiction? But, somehow, I managed to kick you out. I don't know why I stood up for you when my family and my friends were worried about me. There, our lives became more intertwined as my professional life revolved around you. When I got sober I went to detox, and then to an outpatient program. We know the struggle, which is why we're uniquely qualified to help.